Its been a while

Well per usual I am not keeping up to date with things..I am a slacker..thats all I can say about that.

There are lots of things going on in the grand state of Maine. A lot of it is medical..and some very grim.

My uncle Larry has been in the hospital for 10 days now. He was in ICU for several days and today they have moved him to a private room, until his hospice room is ready. I don't know the extent of all his medical issues, but his present state is that his pancrease has shut down and his liver and kidneys are now less than 50% Aunt Donna has removed him from all machines, but they have put him on a morphine drip to help with the pain. He is deteriorating quickly and will not return home, but Gram feels that he is getting better. Or at least she wants to believe that.

Aunt Sue was in the hospital for 5 days during the same time frame. She has cancer. At first it was just ovarian cancer, but to our understanding it is just spreading through her insides. However she wont tell gram how bad it is as not to worry her. Well I still believe Gram should know, but whatever. I think Aunt Sue is going down hill quickly. Chemo has taken a toll on her this time around. She ended up with a bladder and kidney infection that had her so sick that she couldn't even move. She is up and moving now and ok for today, but I don't see her bouncing back from this situation.

Dad for the most part is doing ok. He has surpassed the two month mark. he has his good days and his bad days. He does not have any pain as of yet, but as soon as the pain becomes known, then they will move him to hospice, so they can monitor his medications and his morphine doses. We are having final family photos taken on June 25. He wanted this done so there was a nice photo for the memorial service. He will be visiting the resort for the last time this week. Will be nice to share the beauty of my workplace with him this one last time!

Mom is doing ok, however doctors have told her that she needs to move in to assisted living or into a home where someone can help her with meds etc. They have indicated that her memory is deteriorating at a rapid pace, as well as her mobility. They gave her a 6 month time line to try and find other suitable living arrangements. She knows it needs to happen, but in spite of my grams recently heartache dealing with her children, mom feels guilty leaving. Always been the case and always will be, but she needs to do what the doctor says.

Gram will be 90 in July. Supposed to have a surprise party for her, but now one thinks it may be cancelled due to the impending death of Uncle Larry. I don't think a party to celebrate her life should be cancelled, but I guess it depends on the mentality of everyone involved.

As for me. I feel like I have lived a soap opera live for several months, but I now finally feel I am right where I need to be. I will never live a stellar life or a wealthy life. I may always struggle on a daily basis, but despite everything I am happy.

I made a mistake back in April and started dating this guy Eddie. he seemed perfect..perhaps too good to be true. Well that was just it. Too good to be true. He turned out to be a liar, cheater, user, abuser, sweet talker..and more. I really thought I needed to hate him and wish him a slow and painful demise, but thats not the case at all. He is a lost soul that needs direction or that needs to love himself before he tries to love another. In the meantime he is going to keep doing what he is doing. Yeah, I feel bad that I got played and that I fell for him, but honestly its just another lesson learned in this thing we call life. I enjoyed my time with him, even if brief and all lies. Made me feel special for a short period of time..so for this I cannot hate him.

However during the whole time that I was engaging in dating this gent, I had an email friend named Jason. He eventually became a texting friend, then a phone call friend. He was there through all the drama with Eddie and said, if things dont work out I would gladly date you. We maintained our friendship and when things didn't go right with Eddie, we decided to spend some more time together and eventually allow the friendship to blossom into a dating relationship. So we have had several *dates* and both feel a sense of comfort with one another and true and genuine happiness. We are now exclusive and I hope he is a keeper. Simply amazing. And whats even more amazing...I helped him get a job at the resort, so we will see each other all summer. I think this will definitely be a good thing!!

Work is good, but always looking for more. Thought I was moving away in November, but it appears I am too dedicated to family that Maine is where I will be until its just me. Will just have to settle for vacations, someday, to places I would like to live, work, etc.

I know there are many more updates, but this is a start. I will try to be more visible and for those of you on facebook, a little less negative, and well a lot more vague. Take care..ME.

Pool Time

Well on Memorial Day Sarah and Michelle came over and we went in the pool. I did fine, but my legs just kept wanting to float out from under me so I had to hold on to Michelle the whole time in order to stay upright. That was nice being in the pool, but not so much fun having to cling to someone the whole time so I only stayed in for about 30 to 45 minutes.

This past weekend, I went out and bought me a floating recliner/chair. Michelle had today off of work so she came over with Sarah again for more pool time. Below are some pictures of today's time in the pool. I had a MUCH better time floating around on my own. It was very comfortable, and I was in there for about 4 hours!!

Oh and believe it or not, Apollo actually came swimming today. We had to pull him off the steps, but once in there, he was actually swimming around and not heading straight back to the steps to get out. When I held on to the handle on his life vest, he would swim around and take me around the pool. It was great fun!!

Momma's Birthday Celebration

Well since David doesn't believe me unless I take a picture, here is one of Mom at Red Lobster where we took her for her birthday dinner. She had a strawberry smoothie, crab stuffed mushrooms, garden salad, a garlic cheddar biscuit, and maple glazed salmon and shrimp from the wood grill. She said she was going to have dessert too, but opted out after all that other food. It was a yummy meal, and she thanks David and Fred for treating her to dinner. We had a good time at the King & I play too!!

Chunnan at the Bainbridge Island Bakery